The day before my 22nd birthday I sit back and think. I’m 22 working a job I hate and barely attending college. It’s safe to say I’m not where I thought I would be . It’s sad but I think with all these roadblocks I will become a stronger person.
But one thing has bother me so. My personality. My self. Where has it gone? To tell the truth I don’t have friends. I have people I hang out with but it’s barely. I spend most of my nights home alone with no text messages. I’m not sought after. I don’t have anyone who actively check on me. I think it’s because I’ve distanced myself so much people think I want to be unbothered. Or is that people would rather just go on like I don’t exist.
I have so called “friends” that I’ve known since elementary. They don’t ever text me. They don’t ever give me a conversation that’s not about “getting back” and reconnecting. Every relationship I have forged is shallow. I have no friends. No person who randomly comes over. No person who shows up to my house unannounced no person actively caring about my wellbeing. I’m starting to believe it’s my fault. Did I become a person that is too hard to be open with? Did I lose the touch of what it meant to be a friend to someone as well? I try to make these things real but time and time again I’m met with the fate of being alone on a weekend night while my social media feeds blows up of bar crawls and party scenes.
I spent more time in my room than anywhere else my 21st year. Which is sad but that whole year I got to learn about myself. And in turn it’s that I don’t listen to people enough . So I wonder. What do you guys feel about me? If you’re reading this tell me exactly why we aren’t closer. Why we aren’t friends why aren’t we communicating more. I want to understand where the issues lie because I’m a open book and I’m ready to make changes to my life. I want this year to be drastically different than the one I spent last year.
Listen to this song while you read the post (Trust me)
Celebrating my first post I would like to just tell you guys about what’s going on ahead of us for this blog and this journey that we will go on. This is a “not so personal” blog. What we will discuss on here is more than just daily thoughts but also bring in some culture as well.
There are also some surprises that will come later on, maybe some OOTD post and just pretty cool shit.
Also I will be writing weekly write ups about specific topics (Every Sunday)Look out for this Sunday’s post about the fall and why it’s the best fucking season ever. But honestly I’m just happy to be writing again and I hope you guys enjoy the blog.
Welcome to Death Of A Hipster
P.S. (Also after every post I’ll throw a little suggestion about something cool I’ve stumbled upon, You’re welcome)
Let this song be your song this weekend. If you like chill indie music and are looking for a new band these guys are awesome. Give this song a listen.